Those cravings!!!!

I think I can talk myself into pretty much anything even though my intentions are good. Today wanting to have a bagel for breakfast I made sure to order a 12 grain bagel with plain cream cheese. I also ordered myself a tea.. I did pretty good. Usually at lunch time I feed my daughter and the two daycare kids I watch at 11:00am. I have noticed that by doing this, I am actually eating with them and finding myself starving around 3-4pm which ends up me munching alot on pretty much anything I can get my hands on. I figured I would do my running around, taking the two kids to school and coming back for 12:30pm and having my lunch then. I did not make it. I went to tim hortons again (drive thru was on my way to drop the other one off at preschool) and got a ham and swiss on whole wheat. I ordered a cookie to go with this. I have noticed my weakness is pop and chips and chocolate! When I have chips I automatically crave pop. I am trying to cut that out first which I have been pretty good at so far. No pop yesterday or even today so I guess thats a start!

So although I ate the cookie I think I did "okay" the rest of the day. I know, one step at a time. Afterschool is another hard time for me as all of the kids have their afterschool snack. I managed to eat only ONE tiny little cupcake and avoid the other two that were sitting in the package calling my name (I swear sometimes the junk food calls my name!)

I did give in and have a granola bar as a snack, 2 wafer cookies later on as well.. Although this is probably not the best choice, its certainly better than what I would have done!

After my dinner (which was a cup of hamburger helper) I was craving some chocolate which seems to be a common occurance (this is when I ate the wafter cookies).

Tucked my girls into bed and then comes where I feel I need another snack.. see my pattern here? I managed to stop myself. I made a nice cup of tea (which I am going to switch and start drinking green tea instead) and then I grabbed GRAPES instead of anything else. I really need to figure this out which I am hoping keeping this blog is going to allow for me.

Getting started

Well if you have located this blog, then you have found my interest in trying to loose some weight. I figured should I keep a record of my journey that it will help keep me more motivated and get rid of this excess way. Perhaps it will keep more more responsible for my food choices and my amount of excersising.

I have about 40lbs to loose before I am comfortable with what I weigh. I was given a prescription of Meridia from my Dr in order to help with the weight loss, but the more I have looked into it, the more the stuff freaks me out and makes sure that I am not going to take it.

I think that my weakness is "junk". I have little snacks in the house that are not horrible to have on its own, but it piles up. Sometimes I just feel really hungry even though I have just eaten.

I know I can do this.. I have done it before, and really just need to stay on board, so here goes the 40lbs! This is just the start!